So it is official, I am moving to Russia because I have handed in my resigtnation at my current job.
I am nervous, I am realley nervous because I am not sure if I am about to make the biggest mistake of my life. I will leave England in the end of August.
Recently I was home to Russia on holiday. I visited my dad. I am not speaking good russian, because I grew up in Sweden and I was never taught the Russian language. I have learned a good base through Uni studies and some extra courses. When I was at my Dads in Saint Petersburg this summer he offered me to move home to Russia for one or two years, so I can learn the language fluently.
Especially to write in Russian. The only way to learn a language fluently is to literally live in that country. He said that if I learn me the languages, he will support me financial through my Uni studies. I did not have to pay rent, no to pay for food, and no rush to hunt for a job in Russia. As long as I finish my university which I am doing on distance and learn to speak Russian. Then I go back to Europe to find a job when I am finnished.
When I left Sweden there it no hard decision. England was my dream and I am currently living my dream. But when it is coming to move away from your dream, things is getting harder. It was not an easey decision.
I love this country from the bottom of my heart and I feel like home here. I love the culture, the people, and just everything about United Kingdom. It is a good career move to move home to Russia and learn to speak it fluently. In that case I would have three languages to make money on, and a BSc in Geography. But….
I have a stability here in England. I had a stabil job with a good salary. I have always been independent from the age of 17 and took care of my own. Own place to live and everything like that. Now I am moving home to my dad to live on his money. I am worried about that. And nervous.
- Worried about not to find and extra job, and buy stuff for my own money.
- Worried about how my football cereer will end up like. Playing in the Russian mens league will not be easey. I have alreadey checked for which team I will be play in. And it was green light for me to turn on to practise when I have relocated. But the culture in Russia is very olda nd stereotypic seperated by men and women. Women should not play tackle football. Simple as that. So my biggest fear is not to be accepted in the team. Another worrying point is that many people do not speak english there.
- For the first time in my life I have started to get friends and hanged in groups. I have some friends left in Sweden. But I have never experienced of having many firends as I have in England. I am afraid to loose that and dont get it in England.
- Worried about that I cant get proper help for my ADHD and Bipolarity in Russia. I dont know how the medical help is there. Will I get medication? I dont have my own money, will the doctors cost shitloads of money?
- And the most important thing… After this 1-2 years, what if I dont can afford to go back to England after 1-2 years in Russia. If I dont get an extrajob, I can not save money. And there for not be able to pay for flight tickets back, and accommodation the first months.
The good part:
- I can learn the language, so I will litterally be fluent in Swedish, English and Russian when I am done.
-I can focuse to finnish a degree in my dream studies. Geograph with focus on GIS and command and control science.
- Since I am not gonna work, and the football is turning in to off season, I can focus on my physique on an different level then I have done previously. Which mean that I can plan for the next seasn, and which type of footballplayer I want to be. Playing in Russia will requiere me to be on a higher level than I am now. A reaaalley higher level. So I am gonna have the possibilities to develop me during this off season!
- I will be in Saint petersburg during the best time of the year. Autumm!
You need to risk something, to be able to win something!